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An intensely emotional and gripping companion novel to Laura Nowlin's USA Today and New York Times Bestselling novel If He Had Been With Me about the love that both breaks and heals us. Perfect for fans of Colleen Hoover and Jenny Han. If only I'd told her that I loved her years ago, then I wouldn't be here now. Finn has always loved Autumn. She's not just the girl next door or his mother's best friend's daughter, she is his everything. But she's not his girlfriend. That's Sylvie, and Finn would never hurt her, so there's no way Autumn could know how he truly feels. Jack, Finn's best friend, isn't so sure. He's seen Finn and Autumn together. How could she not know? And how is he supposed to support and protect Finn when heartache seems inevitable? Autumn surrounds herself with books and wants to write her own destiny―but one doesn't always get a new chapter and fate can be cruel to those in love. Told through three different perspectives, If Only I Had Told Her is a love story brimming with truth, tragedy, and the unexpected bonds that heal us. Review: my second favorite book ❤️❤️-💔❤️- 🥀 - I read this book in one sitting in the middle of the night it was so addicting and scaring. I was scared about jack and finnys pov because autumns felt like home. But they were amazing. Finny was died off to soon in this book. I wanted more of him. I thought we got this book to get more of him. If this is the end of finny and autumn I am sad. Before I wasn’t sad because it felt like the end the scar was healed until you ripped the bandage off and now I’m struggling to put it back on. I want more of Finnys point of view when he was with Autumn in high school. I want more of Autumns point of view because she thinks just like me. The charterers changed Finny didn’t. Jack I’m not sure. But autumn definitely did. I don’t know if I like it for the better or worse yet. I wanted to know more about the misfits. I know no one cares about them anymore but they consumed the majority of the first book and were so close and tight knit it felt so real. I want more of how finny felt when Autumn claimed the table back after the war, how he felt after seeing the photo of him and Autumn hidden under the sock drawer, I want more. I need more. But soon I’ll think I have enough and I do. I just feel as this wasn’t the way it was supposed to be. It was the way it was mean tot be but not suppose to be and I hate that. I hate it so much. In the first book I believed that Autumn should have killed herself but after this book I was glad she didn’t and wouldn’t because of the baby. But then I realized finny would never be with the baby so what was the point. It doesn’t feel right to not have Finny alive. It doesn’t feel right to say finny is dead. I thought this book was supposed to heal me but it didn’t and I don’t think anything could. This book was the much more depressing than ‘if he had been with me’ by miles. But at least I know I am happy because autumn is happy because she has a piece of finny with her. I just always wanted autumn and finny to be happy and I guess they are now; finny watching over at autumn and his daughter. Review: I waited for this book for literally a year...well almost! - I am so sad....like there were so many parts that made me reflect. Jack made my heart weep. I actually loved this book but I actually needed more of Finny, I felt as if there was just so much more to him than what we got. The love he described as being oxygen my heart literally skipped a beat when he said that. I felt so bad from the first read and I was looking for closure I did get some but I wanted more. Too bad that he is died. I understand Jack so much.....I have the same thoughts as he does when a relative dies and when I die I wonder if someone is going to mourn me as he did Finny. Like the narrative where he was wondering what happened to cause Finny to crash was great and I thought it would have been expounded on but it wasn't. I blame Sylvie, she was being a big distraction and she knew that unbuckling her seatbelt would have made him distracted. As Jack said he was a careful driver. So it was a chain of unfortunate events caused by her stupidity. The thing that made me unhappy as well was Jack ending up with Sylvie. Like why couldn't he have met someone in college. Why her? What I did like was showing progress on Autumn and life after Finny and her suicidal attempt. I loved how both moms helped her and her reconnecting with friends. When someone is depressed I think that is very significant in bringing them out of that poor reality, letting them know someone was there. However I think that part was a bit too long and a bit drawn out. Though everything was indeed covered. I wished she would have had a better ending a happier one. Her child could have been healthier but I think her attempt to kill herself is what caused her baby to have a hole in the chest but I am assuming that the child will get better and heal as the doctor was positive. All in all definitely a good read. I am satisfied and would definitely recommend but it is still a 4-star read.



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F**Y
my second favorite book ❤️❤️-💔❤️- 🥀
I read this book in one sitting in the middle of the night it was so addicting and scaring. I was scared about jack and finnys pov because autumns felt like home. But they were amazing. Finny was died off to soon in this book. I wanted more of him. I thought we got this book to get more of him. If this is the end of finny and autumn I am sad. Before I wasn’t sad because it felt like the end the scar was healed until you ripped the bandage off and now I’m struggling to put it back on. I want more of Finnys point of view when he was with Autumn in high school. I want more of Autumns point of view because she thinks just like me. The charterers changed Finny didn’t. Jack I’m not sure. But autumn definitely did. I don’t know if I like it for the better or worse yet. I wanted to know more about the misfits. I know no one cares about them anymore but they consumed the majority of the first book and were so close and tight knit it felt so real. I want more of how finny felt when Autumn claimed the table back after the war, how he felt after seeing the photo of him and Autumn hidden under the sock drawer, I want more. I need more. But soon I’ll think I have enough and I do. I just feel as this wasn’t the way it was supposed to be. It was the way it was mean tot be but not suppose to be and I hate that. I hate it so much. In the first book I believed that Autumn should have killed herself but after this book I was glad she didn’t and wouldn’t because of the baby. But then I realized finny would never be with the baby so what was the point. It doesn’t feel right to not have Finny alive. It doesn’t feel right to say finny is dead. I thought this book was supposed to heal me but it didn’t and I don’t think anything could. This book was the much more depressing than ‘if he had been with me’ by miles. But at least I know I am happy because autumn is happy because she has a piece of finny with her. I just always wanted autumn and finny to be happy and I guess they are now; finny watching over at autumn and his daughter.
W**Y
I waited for this book for literally a year...well almost!
I am so sad....like there were so many parts that made me reflect. Jack made my heart weep. I actually loved this book but I actually needed more of Finny, I felt as if there was just so much more to him than what we got. The love he described as being oxygen my heart literally skipped a beat when he said that. I felt so bad from the first read and I was looking for closure I did get some but I wanted more. Too bad that he is died. I understand Jack so much.....I have the same thoughts as he does when a relative dies and when I die I wonder if someone is going to mourn me as he did Finny. Like the narrative where he was wondering what happened to cause Finny to crash was great and I thought it would have been expounded on but it wasn't. I blame Sylvie, she was being a big distraction and she knew that unbuckling her seatbelt would have made him distracted. As Jack said he was a careful driver. So it was a chain of unfortunate events caused by her stupidity. The thing that made me unhappy as well was Jack ending up with Sylvie. Like why couldn't he have met someone in college. Why her? What I did like was showing progress on Autumn and life after Finny and her suicidal attempt. I loved how both moms helped her and her reconnecting with friends. When someone is depressed I think that is very significant in bringing them out of that poor reality, letting them know someone was there. However I think that part was a bit too long and a bit drawn out. Though everything was indeed covered. I wished she would have had a better ending a happier one. Her child could have been healthier but I think her attempt to kill herself is what caused her baby to have a hole in the chest but I am assuming that the child will get better and heal as the doctor was positive. All in all definitely a good read. I am satisfied and would definitely recommend but it is still a 4-star read.
D**I
good and sad
I wanna say that overall I think I liked the first one more, only because the beginning took a while for me to get into. But that doesn’t take away from the fact that this book still had the tears rolling. Great read, so sad, good ending
M**A
A bit boring
I did not read "if he had been with me" as I didn't know this was part of a collection so my review is just based on having read this as a standalone book. Pros: the writing was great. Easy to read and descriptive. The story is told from the points of view of three different people and I feel like the writing was a little different and tailored to each character to match the way they think and the things they say. The different perspectives were interesting to read and I liked that it wasn't three views in the same timeline, it was three different timelines, each one picking up where the previous one left off. Cons: a bit boring honestly. My favorite was the first third of the book that was told from Finn's perspective. It had the most interesting storyline and I was excited to see what came next. The next two thirds of the book were a little boring and kind of dragged. There wasn't much of a plot, just characters coping with what happened at the end of Finn's section of the book. Overall an easy read and interesting enough. Not sure I would recommend.
M**N
Intense and emotional. I loved the depth of the storyline.
This is not the first book but it's the first one that I read in this series. I am thinking that was not a mistake. I have always enjoyed reading YA fiction from the male point of view, probably because that is so different from a woman's point of view. And Finneas was such a lovable character - an all around good guy who found himself caught in a love triangle of his own making. Those are also my favorite romances to read because young love is often confusing and felt so deeply. It can be like Romeo and Juliet and sometimes be downright tragic at times. The writing style is one of the hardest to do well, and that is present tense. But it really does make you feel like you are there in the moment as the action is happening. This story gripped me emotionally and kept me reading. I didn't want to stop. The way it was written helped me grieve with the characters. If felt torn the same way that Finneas did when it came to his lifelong love for Autumn. That was so well done, as was the emotional punch in the gut I felt at the end of the first point of view. I cried. Then it deepened even more when in Jack's POV. He had to somehow move on in life without his best friend. I loved getting to know his heart. The regrets, the pain, the joy and the stages of grief were so well done. Then there was Autumn's point of view, which would more closely resemble my own if I were to find myself in her situation. I felt like I knew these characters - like they were real people. They were so complex and three dimensional. As an author myself, I feel like this deep point of view gave me a new and fresh perspective on developing emotion in scenes. I've always enjoyed developing characters, but this was somehow deeper the way it was done. It's an approach to writing that I am looking forward to developing while writing my own novels. One last thought. I didn't care much for the cursing, but it wasn't overly done. And honestly, most guys think and talk like that in the real world, so the point of view made sense. It added to their emotion in the way it was expressed so that was also well done. The author did not focus on what happens to someone after they die. In fact, she didn't mention the afterlife at all. What she did do was show how a person's life can make an impact on the lives of other people who are still living, and in that sense, they will live on despite having died. The characters found themselves often asking what Finn would want as if he was still there, and in doing so, they were honoring his memory. That was a perspective I had not considered before and I found it to be healing.
A**A
Good read
Enjoyed the first book and this one was good as well.
V**5
sad but good
i love this book it made me cry so hard no spoilers tho just read it and you will see
C**E
Just as Devastatingly Beautiful as it’s Predecessor
I waited 2 months to get into the right mindset to read this one, and I’m so glad I did, because the emotions in this book, for these characters, for Finn, it’s just something I’ve never experienced in any book I’ve ever read. I think it’s because this is so relatable to so many- we may not know a situation exactly like Finn’s and Autumn’s, but we have witnessed and most of us have endured some tragedy in life. Full disclosure: I cried through about 50% of the book. But honest to God, I ended this book with a smile. The 3 point of views were everything, and so well done, I have no complaints. Getting Finny’s POV was EVERYTHING. His love for Autumn was true and deep, and to understand how he really felt about her was simply…bittersweet. It’s hard to find a better word to describe. I felt that we were privileged with so many more details of their final 24 hours together, and getting more of Sylvie’s background was necessary. Yes, you question EVERYTHING leading up to his final moments, but I didn’t feel as angry as I did in the first one, and I think that’s because I was coming off the high that was the first 17 chapters of this book and through his eyes. I love you, Finny. Jack’s POV hit me hard, and I cried the most ugly tears throughout his chapters. He details the aftermath of the accident, and we endure the funeral with Jack, and him laying his best friend in the ground- all things we know are happening, but we read it in live time with him. I would also find myself laughing at something he said, and then crying again by the end of the page. I was surprised Jack and Autumn weren’t entangled more in their lives- they will be, but these POVs were so strongly written, I didn’t feel like they needed to be around each other, and they don’t because they do have their own lives. Jack’s college roommate Brett threw me for the best loop, and I broke again. And our sweet Autumn…her POV was welcomed, and it was so comforting. I cried sad tears and tears of joy. She’s growing and maturing. I don’t hug, and I would wrap her in my arms if I could. The Mothers were the true standouts here, and a few other surprise characters that will provide such a cocoon of support for Finny’s and Autumn’s baby…as well as Autumn herself. She’s so strong, and at the end, you realize, this is life. Sometimes the hand we’re dealt is not great, and sometimes we drag our feet for years to get where we should have been to begin with, and sometimes it’s just too late. But things have a crazy way of working out, and believe me when I tell you, that I truly smiled at the end of this book. I feel such closure, and the last page of the book is probably some of the best advice you can carry going forward when you lose someone you love. Surrounding yourself with those who carry pieces of them within themselves, it’s just…devastatingly beautiful.
J**I
Sieht sehr schön aus
Richtig schönes Cover+ gute Qualität
C**É
One of the best sequel to ever exist
- REVIEW IN ENGLISH AND FRENCH - 🇬🇧 English review : Simply incredible and moving at the same time! This sequel to the first volume is just magnificent and extremely touching. During the 3 parts that this book covers, we cry, we smile, we feel for Jack and Autumn and above all we cry for Finny's part. A sequel that honours its muse, simply perfect! I recommend it! ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ STARS 🇫🇷 French review : Tout simplement incroyable et émouvant en même temps ! Cette suite d'un premier tome est juste magnifique et extrêmement touchante. Pendant les 3 parties que couvre ce livre, on pleure, on souris, on compatis pour Jack et Autumn et surtout on pleure pour la partie de Finny. Une suite qui fait honneur à sa muse, tout simplement parfait ! Je recommande ! ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ ÉTOILES
J**M
devastating, but brilliant
undoubtedly one of the best book written. it is so sad, and full of awkward teenage romance, written BEAUTIFULLY, matching the cover - which, by the way, is stunning. 10/10 reccommend.
B**E
Good book
This book definitely made me cry, it was so good. Hard to put the book down.
M**D
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