Confessions of a Mask

I'd put off my acquaintance with Yukio Mishima until assaying his tetrology, The Sea of Fertility in its first volume, Spring Snow, as translated into English by Michael Gallagher, who also translated the 2nd part of the tetrology, Runaway Horses. Hooked as I instantly was, I thought to proceed chronolgoically through Mishima's work. The earliest to arrive was Forbidden Colours as translated by Alfred H. Marks. I was astonished at the rawness of the prose compared to the opulence-in-verite I found in Spring Snow. I thought perhaps there'd been an evolution of style, perhaps beginning in a brash way and growing into a mature, more redolent and rapturous romance. Having just finished reading Meredith Weatherby's rendering into English of Yukio Mishima's first novel, Confessions of a Mask, I realize Marks was just a miserable translator. Where Forbidden Colours displayed, in Mark's translation, a more overt misogyny, a more cynically abrupt, pre-punk Spartan asceticism, Confessions of a Mask is infused with the most compelling invocations of young love in literature since Vladimir Nabokov's Ada, similarly narrated from an Empyrean seat of reason and resolution, of serenity and sagacity, insight. Even as our narrator internally confesses his 'inversion', his exclusively homoerotic and sometimes floridly sado-masochistic inner fantasy life, he is nonetheless completely open to revelatory intimacy of a non-gender-specific inception: "The pain I was feeling was crystal clear, but of such a unique and incomprehensible nature that I could not have explained it even if I had tried....I could only say that it was a pain like that of a person who waits one bright midday for the roar of the noon-gun and, when the time for the gun's sounding has passed in silence, tries to discover the waiting emptiness somewhere in the blue sky. His is the rending impatience of waiting for a longed-for thing that is overdue, the horrible doubt that it may never come after all." And, even though our introspective and utterly disclosive narrator shares with us his five-times-daily indulgence in his 'bad habit', still, the most disarmingly honest ejaculation is this one: "Sonoko lifted her grave eyes as though unconsciously asking someone for help. In the pupils of her eyes I discovered a beauty I had never seen before. They were deep, unblinking, fatalistic pupils, like fountains constantly singing with an outpouring of emotions. I was at a loss for words, as was always the case with she turned those eyes on me. Suddenly I reached to the ashtray across the table and ground out my half-smoked cigarette. As I did so the slender vase in the center of the table upset, soaking the table with water." Such an indelible, gender-neutral moment. Thirst For Love is next in the Mishima ouevre, but it's translated by the hapless Alfred H. Marks. I'm meanwhile being geek-shamed by famous writers and readers to continue on the Three-Body Problem trilogy. I say, life is too short. I'm sure Cixin Liu will ultimately be worth my time, but for now, my Mishima binge, especially as Meredith Weatherby's translation of The Sound Of Waves seems to be next in the Mishima queue, feels to me of more essential and immediate moment. Such moments of breathtaking insight and beauty as this premiere novel are rare.

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In January 2020, the book discussion group at The LGBT Center in NYC had a thoughtful group discuss this book. Almost everyone liked it and commented about how well most of it is written although we were split on whether the long, strained "straight" chapter about his relationship with Sonoko was fascinating or boring. While the novel takes place in Japan, Mishima is awfully Westernized. (It's listed as a novel, not a memoir, but is clearly autobiographical.) He comes from a very wealthy and conservative family so he's thoroughly educated in European fairy tales. So much so that his first very explicit ejaculation occurs when he discovers a picture of Guido Reni's renaissance painting of St. Sebastian, which his father brought back from a trip to Italy. Mishima is full of romantic notions, including dying a glorious death during the current war. Most of us had not considered how Japan was bombed and suffered during WW II, which is a minor but re-occurring point in "Confessions...." But, of course, Mishima doesn't die a beautiful death (although he does eventually commit a spectacularly botched suicide). He is often strangely distant or detached, and builds a bubble around himself to protect himself from the war and the bombing of Tokyo, as well as from his burgeoning queerness. Mishima isn't damaged by the war or by his queer feelings but he struggles to incorporate both of them (along with his famous sado-masochism). He confronts an extreme feeling in his bubble, and then backs off, returning to his conservative feelings. He's indecisive, sometimes too full of self-examination, but makes choices. His cultural expectation of getting married guides much of the long chapter with Sunoko. I thought that the chapter was too long, too self-involved, but others appreciated the story and internal battle. Each of the four sections ends very strongly: (1) the drunken parade destroying his family's garden, (2) the cannibalistic fantasy (even if it is a juvenile fantasy) and recognition of "the mask" that he must use to separate himself from his peers, (3) the end of the war, and (4) finally the handsome men at the dance hall. This is a literary classic, the translation seems good, but every so often, sentences and thoughts don't make great sense. We have to wonder how much of this is the formal Japanese way of writing and description, or is just Mishima's way of thinking. It's definitely a nuclear-blast-bright snapshot of a single spectacular life in a very specific period. It uncovers a culture we don't know much about, reminds us of how others have had to live, and shows the distance we've traveled since 1948. Mishima's personal life story makes it more interesting but it's a historical document, fabulously well written at times, but mostly important as a historical novel.

What an incredible book, unlike anything I have read before. It took me awhile to read, as almost every paragraph carries the weight of a poem. This is a story of a young Japanese man discovering he is gay, set against the U.S. air war in the mid 40's. It speaks to the split that occurs in one's psyche for those who do not meet the social norms. It tears the soul in two at so many different levels. The entire book focuses on the author's inner life. All his thoughts, feelings, fantasies, and hungers are laid bare for the reader to digest. His later introduction to a woman he cannot forget seems to represent some sort of purity, yet even this is fraught with contradictions. One cannot change the core of who they are, and a hidden life often brings torment. The raw honesty and stark reality of this book will not soon be forgotten.

On the surface, this is a simple story about a young man in 1930s-1940s Japan coming to terms with his homosexuality. However, a quick formal analysis reveals something odd; a story that's all about sex doesn't actually use the word. It's the dirty secret that everyone knows, so a man and woman can talk about "it" without ever saying "it." Like the bits of dirt and grass poking out from his first crush's footprints in the snow, the words of each paragraph (the paragraphs even have spaces between them, like footprints across the pages) can only hint at what's hidden between the lines. For a novel that spans the years of the Pacific War, the war is never explicitly mentioned; it's treated like the dirty secret that everyone knows. How can anyone come out and admit to finding beauty in war when the rest of society feels disgusted by it?

A very well written book, intriguing, only a third of the way in it, but love his style. And the early homoeroitic subject is mesmerizing.

The book is good, but it's about a disturbing story of a man in crisis, slowly discovering his sexuality, in a post war Japan. If you are interested in both topics, you'd like the book. The product itself was good, as per description.

The book itself was great, but my brand new copy came with missing and damaged pages.

Another interesting book by Mishima, one that covers a topic that was not seen very often when it was published. It can be easily be considered LGBT literature because sexuality is the main theme in the book, though the author isn't really showing support towards or against this movement. Instead it is about the self, the hiding and discovery of desires.

This piece of literature is like nothing I've ever read. The captivating and rich passages give a jarring glimpse into the existential struggles of a homosexual protagonist, unsure of how to navigate through the reality of wartime Japan.

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Kamen no kokuhaku is a claustrophobic account of the experiences of a man unable to come to terms with his own desires and identity. It is a powerful work on the stranglehold that conventionality has on personal growth. Kochan, the novel's protagonist reflects Mishima's own troubled personality in this work but this is much more than an autobiographical novel. Kochan's struggle with his homosexual impulses comes about because of his desire to conform to 'social norms.' His failure to accept his own nature has unfortunate consequences not only for his own happiness but that of others, in particular, a friend's sister. Kochan may present an extreme case, being obsessed with bondage and suicide as he is, but we all wear a mask to some extent in our daily lives. This becomes apparent to us when we are unexpectedly confronted with 'contradictions' in our behaviour which varies in different social settings. 'You are who you pretend to be', at least to others. One message from this novel is that if you sacrifice your own nature to social conformity the result is self-destructive behaviour and regret. Kochan is an extreme example, but the suppression of personal feelings for social acceptability is a universal theme which this novel evokes in a compelling fashion. This book is nothing short of a masterpiece.